Time to be stong

As the end of the year grows near and my aching for another child I need to do this and I need to do this now. I am running out of time and quickly. I have told myself I will not fall pregnant until I loose some weight as if I do have blood pressure problems again it will not be fair on Zack for me to have to spend nights in hospital.

I know that loosing weight doesn't mean that I won't have blood pressure problem this time round but surely it will help. Zack, any future children and my husband are my life and I need to be fit and healthy for them. I know how hard it was for James to have to work all day then travel the hour to the hospital to visit me last time.

Loosing weight is also something I need to do for myself, I find these days that I am not near as confident as I use to be and my weight is the reason for that. I want to feel nice again and look nice in cloths.

So my goal is to loose 20kg, 10kg to begin with before I fall pregnant. If I loose more then the 10kg beforehand fantastic. I need to have and keep the will power. Food is something I love and of course the foods I love most are all the wrong things.

So mum has ordered me trim fast and as soon as it gets here I will be going on the diet. I feel blessed to have my mother on hand to help me. She was even so nice to buy this program for me which I think could be a help as that will always be in the back of my head.